I’ve lost close family members also. Honestly, I haven’t been the same since my brother died, not from lack of trying.That is true. My wife spent the last 5 years beating terminal cancer and won. I just recovered from a stroke and had to learn how to walk again.
Both of us 50 yrs old and just retired. Both of us were marathon runners so we were living right but never saw it coming.It put me right with God and made me realize how fast things can change. Trust me man it can get real bad real quick
Everything else is always smaller than it seems when your perspective changes.