Love the BMD, just stunning dogs. Our Belgian Tervuren is probably in his last year or so, going to be crushing when he goes.
My 50kg Rottie lived to 14yo. At 12yo I knew he was on borrowed time.
At 12 1/2yo the vet had the 'We have to start thinking of what's right for him' talk. Man I was so choked up.
He wasn't ill, he was old. Cannabis oil helped his arthritis & he was a happy boy who still enjoyed life.
Just thinking about losing him would bring a tear. No way could I put him to sleep.
So I handed it to the Universe & her agents to look after him. It was like a weight had been lifted.
The religious would hand the problem to God & the Angels. Same thing.
18 months later he woke early & I took him outside. We lay on the lawn & watched the sunrise.
Told him that it was okay, that I'd be alright. To be waiting for me when it's my turn.
With that he laid down his head, took a breath & passed. It was so peaceful.
May that sense of peace pass over you also.