I'd like to go back in time and sit by, listening as Col. R. E. Lee, US Army, work through his momentous decision. He'd sworn an oath to the country, enjoyed the fruits of a free education, married a descendant of Geo. Washington and then convinced himself that his loyalty lay with Virginia, the state of his birth. He had to really contort his mind solving the conflict. I know what he wrote, I'd just would've like to hear and watch his as he resolved the conflict.
Most of the books written about him are homages to this singular individual and therefore worthless as historical references. I would have loved to have been a fly on his wall at Arlington House..