Let me first offer you my sincere sympathies. I suffered under the clutch of insomnia for years. It didn’t help that I am a night owl by nature. It was always worsened when I would look at the clock and know I had only 5 hours until I had to get up. 4 hours...3...then I was awakened by the alarm. Get up, shower, coffee, somehow got dressed and stumbled to the car for my hour commute. Get through the day with a couple of pots of coffee. back home, do it again....
Then, I retired. I still suffered, but no longer had the pressure of arising at a set time. My wife is an absolute angel and recognized my situation, letting me sleep until I got up on my own. I'm still a night owl, but more on my own schedule.
I still have occasional bouts, but it no longer has the hold on me, mostly because the pressure of having to get up at a set time is no longer there. Some days I sleep literally until noon, although those are few and farther between these days/nights. I have relinquished my membership in the "After Midnight" club. However, I sometimes miss my early morning on-line chats with baronsamedi and some of the others in the club…..