@cigrmaster, 2014 has been pretty much the worst year of my 33 year old life. Please know you aren't the only one in the struggle right now or ever. Sometimes life's problems are truly too much to deal with alone. Use your friends and loved ones and take solace that you are not alone.
@JimInks, what a nice gesture. Being a good friend has been discussed here this week. You have exhibited good friendship and brotherhood.