[“Why do I listen to music?”… “I stopped listening to music 17 years ago”.]
I started playing trumpet at 10 years of age… mid 1960s. Moved to trombone in high school, played in every possible thing I could, and taught myself piano and organ, upon which I gigged out as well. Went to college as a music major: music education & pipe organ and completed the long and arduous degree. Eventually supported my family by music teaching in the public schools and by being organist/choir-master in local churches.
In 2007, I simply had had enough. After forbearing the insidious and pervasive noise of the public school and our surrounding culture, I couldn’t stand it anymore. Noise, music, sound… all of it was like pepper-spray and broken glass shards blasting against my ears and mind.
For all intense purposes, I stopped listening to “music”… or at least what mostly passes for music in our culture. From that time until now, I have spent as much time as I possibly can in the deepest forests I can access easily… luckily we have many very fine state forests, game lands, and parks here. Or walking along the Susquehanna River. Or sitting on the back porch as night is falling with pipe in hand and a zen-like appreciation and “listening” to all the true “music” that hums along on its own. I totally grasp and appreciate what the ancients describe as the music or “harmony of the spheres”.
I have found flutes and recorders from various traditions very consonant with the life of the soul, so to speak. In Zen flute playing, and in and with the several Native American flutists I’ve found, there is the additional dimension where the music from these instruments arises from breathing, the rhythm of the breath, and the life-energy of the very act of breathing itself. And so many of these instruments are wood… natural, a gift of the forest, an extension and gift of the “trees of life” sort of thing.
And the natural heath burl filled with the glowing, smoldering embers of the magnificent herb tobacco, is a sacrament where the rising smoke and breaths of life merge and celebrate it all… in quiet, solitude, and the “silent” music of the universe and all vitality pulsing in, around, and through us.
I want to be able to enjoy regular music again, as it was life and breath to me for so long. But my 7th decade on this planet starts next spring. And my ears still hurt. And our constant, pounding, abrasive cultural noise is showing no sign of letting up any time soon.
The lovely and wonderful thing is, I’ve found the pipe to be a sweet accompaniment to soulful silence AND quality music of the audio variety!