I fear nothing. So I thought. Been playing with skateboard for almost 3 months? I'm slow at physical stuff. Got better as I grew up. Understanding what's involved, and breaking down to small steps help me a lot. I do things not because I'm good at them, but because I want to do them. Skateboarding is the latest, and I'm enjoying it greatly.
But for last two weeks, I realized I need to jump up and down on the skateboard to do further tricks. Had skateboard shoot out under my feet few times. Not exactly a great feeling. And knowing jumping on the skateboard could greatly increase the chance of skateboard shoot out is causing irrational fear. I mean, worst that could happen is I'll fall. I fell so many times in my life, I shouldn't be concerned. But this time, it's scaring the shit out of me. So tried jumping on the skateboard with wheels locked. Easy. Tried to jump on it without the lock, not so easy. My feet are stuck on the ground and wouldn't come off. So tried just jumping off the skateboard and took a week just to do that. And finally, I was able to jump a little few times today. But still can't jump on it. For some reason this irrational fear is not going away easily.