First, thank you all from the bottom of my heart! For your kindness, concern, wise counsels, and acceptance of course. I feel such a terrible irony in it all. I, like so many, including guys I’ve read here, have had severe difficulties with depression throughout my adult life… 30+ years treatments, up to and through a long, brutal course of ECT and the like. And you know what? One of the MOST effective helps, bar none, has been the convivial pipe! Over the past several years, I could be in suicidal sloughs of despond, and struggle to even so much as lift the pipe, not even so far as to actually light, tamp, and smoke it… but once I’d make it over that little Everest, the pipe, tobacco, and the whole schtick would lift me to totally different and wonderful places and the sloughs of despond would go back to hell where it came from in the first place. At one point, a local doc was busting on me for pipe-smoking and until I asserted it both saved my life on numerous occasions, and was far more cost-effective and far more quickly pharmacologically effective than all the $1000/month hi-tech chemicals with bizarre names out there that we’ve shoved down my throat.
So now I can’t breathe. It just ain’t fair. I’ve been around way long enough to know that life isn’t even meant to be fair… but CRIMINY!!! Cut us a break here!!(He rails at the heavens!)
I can’t even begin to tell you all how much you’ve meant to me over the past 5 years… and you didn’t even know it!(even as I was mainly a tacet lurker cuz I’m also bashful) Here there is such generally happy banter over such happy subject matter that has nothing to do with damnable election BS, wars and rumors of wars, plague, famine, pestilence, etc etc etc. Pipesmagazine and this forum, and also our wonderful friends on the blogs and store over at Smokingpipes.com have given me such endless hours of fun, humor, learning, total immersion happy escapism, mellow meditation time, and DELICIOUS reads at all levels of our august hobby and obsession. I don’t know what I’d do without it! Once before I had a huge scare and panicked and donated nearly all my tobacco and all but my core pipes away… I was happy to do it… but also with some general constitutional regrets later.
Anyways, I’m sorry to have prattled on at such length. I had promised myself never to get into any of this in a public forum… but then I had such fun getting to know pipesmokingtom over the past couple weeks, and cobguy and shaintiques and so many generous others here. After such a hard night, I was scared of the potential loss of it all. But then there were also mso’s wise as always words of equanimity and temperate perspective. Salvation from you all again! THANK YOU!!