I don't want to get all wishy washy, but maybe a little philosophical. As many of you know, I have had some major life changes in the past 7 years. I was in a wreck in '05 where I broke my pelvis and fractured my L4 vertebra. At the time I had a prospering business in the construction field. I am a painter/finisher by trade, but do them all. I was one of the best Wood finishers in central Ohio. I was bringing in great money. Did what I wanted to do. Shopped without looking at prices. I also partied like I wanted to and live a "rockstar" lifestyle when I wasn't working.
When my fiance was pregnant with my first son is when the wreck happened. I am not going to get into specifics, but I had to shut down my business and get sober and did by '07. I had 2 kids by then and their mom died that year. My life was very dark for a couple of years after and although I didn't drink/drug, I did many other things. I had not accepted that my life would never be the same.
In the past 3 years I have done a lot of growing. I came into my 40's and fought it for a year. I got some acceptance with it in the last year and am growing again. Not so much on this site, but in my life here in Ohio I had some issues with people looking down on me because I barely get by. They pity me and up until a few weeks ago, It ate at my soul. I'll just get to the point. I learned that acceptance is the key to peace. Don't get me wrong, I don't accept that I will never rebound. I accept that as long as I do all I can to better myself and keep my side of the road clean, that what is supposed to happen will happen. I accept this as fact. Its the way of the universe. As long as I do what i am supposed to do, things just slowly fall into place and I can go to bed at night knowing I did the right thing. I wrote this post so maybe if someone else here has fallen on hard times, they may be able to take something from this post and get themselves a little peace. Sorry for the short novel. I hope you liked it..
When my fiance was pregnant with my first son is when the wreck happened. I am not going to get into specifics, but I had to shut down my business and get sober and did by '07. I had 2 kids by then and their mom died that year. My life was very dark for a couple of years after and although I didn't drink/drug, I did many other things. I had not accepted that my life would never be the same.
In the past 3 years I have done a lot of growing. I came into my 40's and fought it for a year. I got some acceptance with it in the last year and am growing again. Not so much on this site, but in my life here in Ohio I had some issues with people looking down on me because I barely get by. They pity me and up until a few weeks ago, It ate at my soul. I'll just get to the point. I learned that acceptance is the key to peace. Don't get me wrong, I don't accept that I will never rebound. I accept that as long as I do all I can to better myself and keep my side of the road clean, that what is supposed to happen will happen. I accept this as fact. Its the way of the universe. As long as I do what i am supposed to do, things just slowly fall into place and I can go to bed at night knowing I did the right thing. I wrote this post so maybe if someone else here has fallen on hard times, they may be able to take something from this post and get themselves a little peace. Sorry for the short novel. I hope you liked it..
