- Dec 12, 2016
I wasn't sure whether I should write this post or keep the thought to myself, but I guess we are a close community here so here goes. Lately I had it hard, in as far as work and fatigue. Long hours, a bit of commute, out of town trips, weekend obligations and more work, with little to no satisfaction. Sort of one of those projects that yields no immediate moral or financial gains, but a tedious investment in one's future, and I am not even sure I am making the right decision here - afraid of a sacrifice in vain. This has taken a toll on me, to the point where I fell back on cigarettes especially if you mix a little over the top of alcohol - that being pretty much my old recipe for stressful times. Needless to say, I smoked about 3 bowls in over a month. Finally tonight I managed to pull myself together, and in spite of the emotional pitfall I am in, I find the time for a pipe. I come in at about 8 pm, the wife is working on something and I sit down at my desk with the pipe, and that magically made me feel a whole lot better. First of all, it was the awesome taste that was so familiar ... it just struck a chord that made me change the perspective in an instant. By the time I finished my first bowl, and started browsing the forum, things didn't look as gloomy anymore. I lit a second bowl, half full, and now I am off to sleep feeling quite renewed. I am just as tired, just as much work will be waiting for me tomorrow, but that comforting instance of smoking my pipe made me realize how nice life can actually be, when all day long we are chasing illusions. May it be a placebo effect, or could the pipe have therapeutic properties ? Just a thought ..